As some of you noticed I haven't been active for a few years. Beside a failed attempt from 2 years ago, I was gone for 5 years. There are two main factors for that. The first one: xHamster's change of policy when it comes to uploads. When it comes to sex, I want to be anonymous. If my nudes are spread under my nickname - that sucks. But it doesn't affect me in real life. But honestly I was too proud of my achievements (or my hole) so my pride got the best of me and I caved in. The second reason is more personal and emotional - it's a crippling depression. I did not have the strength to set up… Read more

TW: anal fissure Three months ago I bought new numbing cream. Not one of those where you feel a little less than usual, no. I bought a cream that made the area it's used on totally numb. Like literally nothing, even if you use heat, cold, or anything beyond that. It wasn't my first experience of that kind. Having a slightly numb opening was a huge turn on. I knew that theres a big dildo or plug in there. I felt the pressure from my insides being pushed away. I felt that my prostate was about to explode. But my hole felt more relaxed and the sharp pain when you come across the widest part of… Read more

Dear reader, dear community, one year ago there was a time I got really bored. I had 3 weeks of vacation that I had to take - but I had nothing to do. So, like everytime I'm bored I put something in my ass and was happy for a moment ... Then I had an idea: can I put something big in my rear everyday and what would do that to my butthole? A little backstory: the IDEA of having a permanent gaping and loose asshole is something that I fantasize about a lot. Often I find myself thinking about how I can become more wide, more loose, more easy access. The classic "fist my hole into oblivion… Read more

Dear friends and dear strangers, a few days ago xHamster decided to only allow uploads from verified users. It might be the right step from their point of view but for me it's downgrade to lurking-only. I have my own reasons to share videos: - exhibitionism - being proud how loose and wrecked my asshole has become - the thrill of doing something naughty or taboo etc But I'm safe and anonymous doing that, or least was. No one knows me and when my account gets stolen it'll be a moment of "oh shit!" - but nothing more. Verifying requires an ID, including everything. First and Last name, Street,… Read more